So What is Plan B?

Posted by Joshua at 8:58 pm

It’s been awhile, a long while since I have last updated this blog with something that’s been happening to me. I got so busy with a lot of things plus the fact that I’m always swamped with work that I do not have the energy to do something else anymore whenever I come home aside from sleeping right away. Wish that is the case but if you have an overly active toddler who is still wide awake at 1 A.M. and still wants to sing and dance while watching the Hi 5, sleep is a luxury. And when she does sleep early, she’ll wake up at 5 in the morning to watch Dora the Explorer or Hi 5 again and she’ll even order her underlings a.k.a. her parents to jump around and sing with her. So I usually go to work with raccoon like eyes and fogged up mind. I’m just grateful that my bosses have not thought of kicking me out yet for giving them odd answers for no brainers. Of course, that’s my subconscious mind speaking to them but do they know that? They might look at me in a different light you know, a screwball for instance or a total madcap! One of the bosses’ even joked (READ: mocked) that he was just asking me to think out of the box and not out of this world! Ha! Ha! Really funny! NOT! Especially when your job is on the line and you have been hearing rumors that a lot of us are getting the boot by next month. It happened a few years ago to unsuspecting “victims” that’s why it could happen again. It was a total shocker for all of us. The news came from a very reliable source and according to this person the supervisors already talked to their staffs about it. All the names in the imaginary “black book” will be sacked but I am not one of them. That’s a relief for now but things can change you know and I have to prove myself to them that I am worth keeping. But how if I am always hungry for sleep? I guess no more sugar for Sophia from now on so we will all sleep soundly when the clock strikes 10. It’s just she doesn’t want to wind down and lie in bed when we are not complete. She wants us three to be all in bed before we can declare the “lights out” rule. And that means total darkness. No desktop, laptop or night light should be left open. Quite hard for hubby and me because that’s the only time that he can play his RPGs on PC and as for me it’s my chance on catching up on my blogs. Writing is very therapeutic for me and I need to write like fish needs the water. So I guess I’ll just write whenever I can. No matter where I am. I’ll write on paper, tissue or on anything whenever I think of something to write about. So I don’t need to be home and start typing away like crazy to beat the 10 PM deadline that is really exhausting. And because I really need a pure and unadulterated sleep, not just catnap or have forty winks, I will learn how to manage my time in the office. Like taking my breaks for one and do something productive when I’m at it. I could write a short post during my first 15 minute break and write an even longer one during my lunch break. How I wish I could really do it. Since most of the time, I sacrifice my much needed breaks because of my heavy load at work. It’s been a long time since I have slept and be like dead to the world and I’d like to experience that again very much. And since I don’t want to stop sharing a piece of my mundane life with you, I’ve got to make this work. If it doesn’t, there is always Plan B that I could fall back to. What about it? I don’t have a single clue.