Apple Seed with a Heart
Last Monday we went to the ob-gyne for my pre-natal check-up. We waited there for about an hour and a half. While waiting scary thoughts again flooded my mind. The last time that I was there wasn’t good news; it was heartbreakingly painful when the doctor had confirmed my suspicion that I had lost our baby and that was July. And now after just four months here I am in the same hospital but with a different OB hoping for some happy news. My previous pregnancy was blighted. Meaning there was no embryo that has been formed but there’s a gestational sac, a lonely empty sac. When my doctor finally arrived, she motioned me to the room where they will be performing trans-v on me. I was lying down and the doctor was preparing the instrument, I was reciting a silent prayer, “Please Lord God don’t let it be another hollow space.” I don’t want to go on staring on the monitor again and see nothing. My heart beat rate was shooting up the ceiling, my hands were quite clammy and my voice was trembling when I’ve asked the doctor if something’s amiss. She paused for awhile, looked at me and a smile slowly formed on her lips and it finally brightened her entire face. And that’s when I knew that my baby is there this time. That was just I needed to see to allay all my fears. She magnified the screen for me to have a closer look at my baby. The doctor said that it’s still small as an apple seed. While I was looking at my child, something was moving. I got alarmed and asked my doctor what it is and she laughed and said that it’s my baby’s heart. A heart, I’ve exclaimed! My baby’s got a heart and its beating! Tears of joy welled up and streamed down my face. God is so amazing! How can something as small as an apple seed be with a beating heart already?
I was so elated! Seeing my baby alive inside of me and whenever my heart beats its heart does too. It’s like everything all of a sudden became larger than life. This is real but almost surreal. I’m a mom! And we’re going to be parents! I can’t wait to see my child and hold it in my arms. And watch it squiggle, yawn, blink its eyes, open its mouth, grab my finger, make a fist at me and many more. He or she will look so fragile and helpless in my arms and might feel a little afraid with its new environment but I’ll whisper to him/her these words “This would be the first and last time that you’ll ever be afraid of anything my child. Mommy’s going to protect you and take good care of you. And you don’t even have to call on Mommy anymore because I will stay with you and stand by you for as long as you need me. I will love you my dearest baby even after I cease breathing.”
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Great news! Congratulations to the 3 of you!
@Jorge Thanks Jorge! If it’s not too much to ask kindly pray for the safety and health of the baby too.
It’s been a while since the last time a prayed.
Really.
But I truly wish that the baby has health and a great life.
@Jorge That will do Jorge. Thank you very much!
Oyyy congratulation! Enjoy being pregnant while it last and I wish you good health and more happiness with your little angel!
@liza Thanks so much Liza! I really hope and pray that everything will be fine with my pregnancy this time. God bless!